My feelings are all over the place as I’m seated on my desk ready to write something fresh. It’s past midnight and although I need to sleep, I’ll instead pour my feelings into something neat. It’s like I don’t even know how I feel, I believe I’m happy but deep within me I know there’s something not being seen. Something I need to let go of because all it does is hurt me and hold me back. Something that’s been haunting me for years, awake and in my sleep. And as if that’s not enough, I’m not the only one by it touched. It was beautiful until I gave it too much. Too much for any of us to handle. I was selfish when I didn’t let go. But now I realize that I’m doing us all a favor as I move on. As ink spreads on a paper or two I know I was lucky to have such a beautiful catastrophe but it’s time to set us all free and say my apologies. I hope the best for that beautiful mess, or was the mess in my head? I can’t really tell. But as I breathe in and breathe out I thank god for the pain knowing that I might just grow into something great. And I hope I can now live to the fullest with no ‘what if’ ‘s blocking the way. I breathe in the cold scent of the winter air as I decide that there will be no more despair. I hope to drive myself to a place where I can make a change and to a time when I’m not afraid to fail. And maybe I could not turn insane along the way.
Happy Saturday loves! Today I thought I’d share with you something I recently wrote. It’s different from what I usually post, but I’m hoping to write and publish more posts like this one. Let me know what you think in the comments! I know this isn’t really that great but I poured my feelings into words and that’s what came out so I hope you enjoy!! Also: yaaaasssss it’s the weekend! How was your week? Lovely, I hope!