I want to live everything as intensely as I can. I want to dance through life with a smile on my face even if I’m dealing with a heartbreak. Because I realised that life is one big journey that’ll eventually end for everyone. And I want to make the most of it. I want my journey to be full of love and happiness and laughs but also accompanied with pain and sobs. Because even when I’m sobbing at 4am because I’m in so much pain, I know it will pass. And so I laugh. I laugh because I know that I shouldn’t take anything too seriously. And because I know that in order to feel full again I must feel empty. It’s also because I know nothing blooms all year round and I accept and love and am grateful for my life with its ups and downs. I think even the pain that I’m feeling is beautiful; I’m feeling it because I care and because I have so much love inside me. I can’t describe it like I can’t describe a colour but I can feel it and it’s beautiful. It hurts, but it’s beautiful. I want to walk through this journey with faith and trust in god and I know that everything happens for a reason, even if I don’t know the reason yet. I want to touch the lives of all the people I come across. I want to embody and radiate love, acceptance, kindness, warmth, vulnerability, strength, positivity and happiness. I want to help people understand that yes, you will breakdown. Yes, you will spend hours upon hours sobbing, feeling hopeless and wishing you can just give up. BUT you will also feel extreme happiness. You will spend hours laughing and feeling blessed for everything you have and you will be grateful that you didn’t give up. God sees you. God knows you. He knows what you’re going through. He’s making you go through it for a reason. God loves you. He’s blessing you with so much. And honestly? Nothing’s worth you staying upset. You will feel pain, let yourself feel it and heal. But don’t let the pain steal your happiness. What’s meant to be will always find its way. And what’s not? Well it’s because something better is. And no matter what you do you cannot change your fate. So let it be. Live everything intensely. Live everyday intensely. Dance through life. Through the joys and the pains. See where life leads you. And enjoy the ride, kiddo. Make it worth it. We’re only here for a while, remember?
I want to live