There is a never-ending battle between me and myself
I’m tired of fighting but I can’t stop
My heart is empty and my soul is scarred
I’m waiting for better days to come
But I’ve been waiting for so long.
How many times do I have to break down before I can finally have peace?
I await joy to fill me up again
But every time things start to look up
My pieces are shattered again
And it all comes crashing down on me,
Memories haunt me
And O how they destroy me
I thought I was out of the darkness
But my tears are still flowing
And my mind is still overthinking
My heart has turned numb
And my soul is aching.
I’m struggling to free myself from this maze
I will survive
But how long will it take me to get to the other side?
My body shivers as unwanted thoughts make their way into my mind,
Who is this I see in the mirror
I can’t seem to recognise myself
I try to convince myself that the darkness is so consuming
Because soon the light will be intense and this time it won’t be taken away from me.
I have faith
But with every new wound on my heart I lose hope a little
Holding on is hard but letting go is harder.